The ongoing danger of a sacrifice

We went back to the town I used to be a youth pastor in for a friend's birthday party. Everytime we go back I have a struggle inside. I have the overwhelming desire to see that church as people who threw me out. This is not the case though. The truth as I understand it is that I saw a problem that my conscience (in association with the Holy Spirit) wouldn't let me leave alone. I knew that fixing the problem might cost me my job, but in the end it didn't. It did strees my relationship with the leadership of the church though. I then developed some differing ways to look at the same set of core beliefs that I have always believed. I knew this new viewpoint did not line up with church doctrine and so again my conscience required me to take action. I could not honestly continue to take a pay check and call myself pastor in a church that had a doctrinal statement that I could not unreservedly support. I needed the freedom to listen to my conscience and the price would be my pastoral job. I decided after talking to many pastoral friends that I was willing to pay this price, not to mention that integrity and my conscience demanded that I pay up. I chose to leave. No one forced me out. If I had stayed they might have asked me to leave, and they should have since I could no longer whole heartedly support their doctrinal statement. I did not on my last Sunday as Pastor, when they graciously allowed me to preach, feel that I was an enemy of the congregation. And everytime I go back there and visit I am treated like royalty by everyone.
We are called on to make sacrifices in life. When we make them we are being like Jesus, willfuly giving up our "rights" for the good of others. The danger for we who have sacrificed is the danger of Satan's revisionist history. He tries to repaint the story to divide us against each other and to try to nullify and work against the character building that was accomplished through the sacrifice. I'm not blaming Satan though, a part of me "wants" to believe the new story. Sacrifice exposes my belly, my weakness. Satan's stories always put me back in a position of power. I really can't want to have the upper hand, and desire to sacrifice too. The two ideas are anit-thetical to each other. Blessed are the weak. Just as I had to decide to sacrifice in the moment I also have to commit to continue to the sacrifice and not give in to fear, which makes me want to regain control and do damage control on my image.
Lord help me to give up control and not be concerned with my image.