Giving up on greatness

My mission for the next period of my life is to figure out how to not promote myself, how to not draw attention to myself, how to achieve without notice, how to love without being loved, how to support an agenda other than my own, how to be humble. So much of my life has been about, and continues to be about getting noticed, about promoting myself, about being good enough and earning my place among others. I have cared for too long what other people think about me, about how I look, and what I say. I want that to be different now. I am so utterly unaquainted with humility that I find it hard to live out. I don't know what it looks like. I have trouble not yelling "TaDa!!!" and pointing at my achievements. In fact I wonder is this blog entry just an attempt to grab a little glory for myself???

On the Pinto front I got the heater plate made, painted, and attached, but I haven't put the heater back in just yet. When we chained the Pinto to the trailer during the move we pinched a brake line, which I tried unsuccessfully to fix today. I'll buy a new one tomorrow. I'm also going to try to get the rest of the parts to mount and route the electric fuel pump.

We rented the movie "Spanglish" which was wonderful. A great story, interesting characters, and no fairy tale ending.

As a matter of prayer, I tested to get back on with local law enforcement agencies this last weekend. Pray that God would give me clarity about whether that is the best route to take. Pray also that God would help me to be patient and to be more concerned with becoming an admirable person than a person who has accompished admirable things.